expecting the worst

today i had a meeting that i was totally in a panic about. it was a situation i wanted to avoid. my thoughts about it sent me into spin.  i couldn’t think of anything good that could come from it.

now that it is over and i find the world hasn’t closed in it is an interesting exercise to think about what it was about the situation that made me so freaked out and agitated.

firstly it was not having total control of the situation, even feeling like i had no control.

secondly it was not wanting to have to deal with these people (but not really having an option of opting out).

& thirdly wondering if the outcome of the meeting would have a negative impact on my family.

these were all panic statements, worst case scenarios.  what i did have control of was my actions and words. accepting that the meeting had to go ahead and waiting to see what the impact was also helped me get through.

i need to find a balance between total negativity & foolish optimism then life might take a different turn.

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One thought on “expecting the worst

  1. I like this “i need to find a balance between total negativity & foolish optimism then life might take a different turn.” I feel the same…

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