we’re unconventional together

too hot for trousers

Originally uploaded by beccaplusmolly

a little different

i can celebrate the difference of others: they speak a language other than English, they may have published a book, have raised five children and homeschooled them, whatever – their difference is a badge of honour, something to be proud of.

for myself i have always found the path of difference tougher to travel. as a child i hated being given brown bread in my school lunch or that my lunch came in a brown paper bag instead of  a slick plastic lunch box. (these days i’m glad of both of these things). the difference i struggle with now is my bipolar disorder (or manic depression as it was once known as). i resent how my moods can rule my life and my behaviour. i resent the medication i need to take to help keep things on track. i am angry that i will not be able to breast feed my new baby when he arrives in september. i just want to be one of the crowd.